"raaa, raaa, ra, raa, ra"

oh man i havent wrote one of these in a while.
anyways.. last night was pretty good up until the ending.
i went to the local show to see my buddys band and to hang out with a couple of my friends,
that was rather enjoyable but i kindda felt ignored by some people i thought i was pretty close with. :(
the bands were very good and me and my friend matt got smashed off some jamacian rum and vodka.
let me tell you how nasty that rum was, i couldnt even fucking breath the shit made me want to vomit i swear it was like 80% alcohol cause it burned like a motherfucker going down.
all in all good start of the night.
then i came home, went on msn for a bit...
then my bf tells me he read my facebook inbox with me and my ex so he freaked out alittle and by the end of it, we broke up.
i hate knowing how much he is dying inside.
i hate how i am.
but it was probably for the best. i didnt trust myself. and i realized before at the show when i kindda wanted to kiss a guy.
pretty much i still love him but i just needed to experiance more of my teenage life, he was more of a husband type character. plus i kindda dont want commitment, id rather it be no strings attached.
well we will see what happens later on this week cause i still plan to hang out with him today after work.
updates later.