OMFGGG!!!!!!!!!

im annoyed by my last period class.
i signed up for travel and tourism, but i get hospitality and tourism.
a whole different course.
i went to the councellor to switch out but low and behold every forth period class was full and i was stuck.
having to take a course i dont need and wasting my time durning highschool is bad enough, but my class is the worse.
there is about four boys and 20 something girls.
all the girls are either stereotypical idiots with fake hair and fake personalities or they are the quiet types. me one of them.
we spend nearly 50 minutes of the class wasted on girls talking and getting told to shut it but they dont. and some decide its soooo funny to talk back to the teacher and be a little bitch. its immature and annoying. i wanna punch thier faces in.
they think they are soo cool and hot when really they are not, without the make up, the fake hair, the fake nails and the tna, they are all ugly twigs.
i got stuck with this group for an assignment and ended up doing most of the work, and today we got a new assignment and i was excited cause i already knew what i wanted to do and who i wanted to work with but fuck my life those same girls i worked with last came to me and said "heyyy so what are we doing for the new project?" i didnt wanna say no. im not rude. but i switched out of the group without telling them, i feel bad but whatever. i need a good mark.

another issue..
i was walking to my bf's house yesterday and when i passed the crossing between main and thompson, two collage girls wearing tank tops and lu lu lemon pants pulled up in this van and made a comment about my outfit.

whore #1: OMG! i got the same outfit from walmart!
whore #2:HAHAHA! LOSERS WALK!
me:OMG! your so original...

are people just getting more and more retarded? i dont even know where to begin with this.
so many girls have degraded themselves to believe that without tna, lu lu lemon, halter tops, push up bras, thongs and a full layer of cover up and make up, they are unattractive to the male eye.
i know for a fact that most men find that unattractive...
beauty is who you are. if your not who you are, your not beautiful. i myself have been made fun of for being ugly, wearing ugly clothes or being fat, but the truth is im not. im pretty. im not fat. i wear decent clothes.
why have a relationship based on looks and sexual attraction? relationships are meant for love. its stupid how some girls and boys go out for what 1 week? do stuff then never talk again and forget about the other one , then a year later do it again. thats not what love is about. love is about commitment, loyalty, trust and friendship. thats why im happy. i HAVE that.

so on an end note;
i hate highschool girls and boys
i hate whores
i hate school
and i hate the minds of today.

not giving up, but losing hope.

i feel as if im the worst girlfriend EVER.
i love you, but i dred our fights. i hate what we say to one another. i wanna be with you forever but not like how we are now.
i fear things are not going to work. but i also fear a world without you. i cant think straight and im finding it hard to breathe. ever since i hung up ive been sitting in silence, waiting, crying, hoping. but for what?

Muse

i realized today that i serve no real purpose in this world.
im not anything important. what do i do for a living? nothing.
i dont know what i wanna do with my life, and my interests always change.
i dont even have a stero type in high school. i dont take part in anything. so im not an athlete, a band geek, a scholar, or a member of the student council. im just a normal kid.
but kid for not longer. im 16 turning 17. in two years ill be done highschool and ill be forced into the world on my own. but how am i suppossed to support myself? i have no career in mind. and in order to be what i might want to be in two years i would had have to taken certain courses back in high school. so why does every adult tell us there is no pressure, that they still dont know what they want to be? cause really the pressure is on. decide now or face a life of simple jobs with minumum pay and struggle to pay the bills and live.
fuck this world is so corupt.
i may not know what i wanna be but i know that i wanna do something smallish, i dont wanna be a big business lady, a lawyer or a doctor. i wanna be something like a owner of a book store or an assistant to someone big. i understand the responsibility of a job but why have a job with emormus responsibility and lots of money when i can have a not so bad job getting just enough money. i dont need a big house, a nice car and a boat. all i need is my friends.

"ill get by with a little help from my friends" - The Beatles