not giving up, but losing hope.

i feel as if im the worst girlfriend EVER.
i love you, but i dred our fights. i hate what we say to one another. i wanna be with you forever but not like how we are now.
i fear things are not going to work. but i also fear a world without you. i cant think straight and im finding it hard to breathe. ever since i hung up ive been sitting in silence, waiting, crying, hoping. but for what?