Ima playa? SAY WHAT?!

i came to my attention that im kind of being a player now that im single. i dont really see it. its not like im dating 10 different guys. im just hanging with three guys, im not with any of them. im just seeing whats out there.

so one of these boys is my good friend (whos name doesnt need to be told). i kindda always had a little thing for him and i still do. and we recently hung out and uhh made out lol. he wasnt the best kisser but i blame it on the fact that he only kissed one other girl before and he was really high like so high his heart was beating like 100 a minute he just couldnt control himself. anyways because i like even though he wasnt to good and kissing, im gunna try and teach him.

but i still cant seem to deminish the fact that i really like my other guy friend but he doesnt like me back. and i think he's been avoiding me cause ive been trying to talk to him but he hasnt been responding. :S he is definately my dream boy but i cant make it happen. im too young for him and im not his idea of the perfect girl. but i wish i was.