Live long in prosper.

Over the course of this week, iv'e came to really get to know a lot of new people. i feel a sense of belonging and love. i never knew i could feel this way again, after that tragic end of relations. my heart does still wonder off sometimes, trying to reach out for the past, but since a while ago my heart has had distractions. sudden rushes of emotions have swept through my body, like wind brushing through my hair. now i forget about the past to give room for the present and future to grow. although i really want to go further into new relations, i cant help but fear for the worse. i fear that im going to be used once again. i really like this boy, maybe even love. i dont want to rush, but i cant seem to help myself. and now i regret my past decisions, cause now iv'e become one of those people i daily talk about behind thier backs. im ridiculous. but in all hopes i wish for the best, eveynight at 11:11. as for this weekend, i havent been this happy in my entire exsistance. spending time with the one i care the most about. tonight i will dream. a sweet dream, that weakens the knees.