Lucky or Luckless?

The home life is unsettling at the moment. Joe thinks its okay to drink, smoke dope and verbally abuse his children. i hope he gets cancer. My suck-up for a brother stands at my fathers feet, kissing them and nagging him along about false statements. The sister isn't too bad, although she needs to be more considerate. i do so much for her and she takes it for granted. i skipped out on family day and counselling, to spend more time with the one person who actually makes me happy. Andy. his smile, his eyes, his laugh, his touch, his humorous attitude makes me gush. Oh fancy, i rhymed. i kinda sorta love this boy. i want to show him how much i really do, and the only idea that pops in my head reminds me of what i used to do to reassure someone of that, and look where that got me. I was lonely and depressed for 2 whole months but then this silly little boy came along and swept me off my feet. But my decision is final, i love him so whatever it takes to show him, ill do it. Not saying its a bad things and i don't want to, just that i don't wanna end up in the same mess as before when i gave up my v-card for someone i thought who loved me. but i believe this boy loves me back. So Saturday, Saturday will be the day. I'm excited, but until then I'm happy enough to just hold his hand on this journey called life.